ipod mania

well, early in the mornin after a warm trip to the gym... i suddenly come across this basically cute guy.... who is joggin while the iPOd is doin all the work... i am jealous ... give him a stare.... and a grin and keep walking wishin i had one....and while i am just on the way.... there it is... the autorikshaw with words that peirce into ur head and make u wonder... what on heavenly earth could this be? i’ve seen is almost a thousand times but never did i chek it out......
if you are wonderin wat was inscribed on


the back?... it was " mouthshut.com" looks like a funny way of advertisin i reckoned ..... and when i’m back home.. and am jobless...i log intO the usual orkut and blog space.... and suddenly something flashes... oh yeah lemme chek mouthshut...and here iam.....
while i enroll myself in this website and scroll through the number of pages.... and find this beautiful offer... write a reveiw....!!and there are possiblities of you winning an ipod. i tell myself... oh! stop being obtuse.. all this is nothing but media gimmick....while i am just loggin off... i am spellbound with the number of winner’s and begin to think i should give this a try.... now... i wonder about what i should write a reveiw about?? and here i am... writin about the consecrated , unpredictable , most fantasized , I POD.
may be in a few years to come by we’d all see ipOd’d in a party, people will dedicate songs through the iPOd’s


IpOd in the lane, ipOd in the rain
IpOd in the school, oh! yeah they rule,
ipOd in the mall’s, ipOd in the stall’s,
iPOd when u bored, songs that are stored,
ipod here, i pod there , IPoD!iPOD everywhere,
tv’s replaced by iPOD,
radiO’ replaced by ipod’s,
ipod here, ipod there ,ipod ipod everywhere!!!!

this would probably be a nursery rhyme soOn... will u beleive this? times have changed, sO have need’s... something that was fettish a whiile ago.. becomes the needed now, well rememba? when i was in primary school a mobile was hardly famous... people who carried it were loOked upon... but now everyone carries it....i’d wanna share this funny incident..

( 2 caller’s me and x , while x-is a milk man , who is supposed to bring his holy cow for some relegious function)
x’s fone rings
* after the phone is answer’d*
x: HUHyeLLo"
(the persoN knows it’s me thanks tO the caller id)
Me: enga irkinge??( where are u?)
x:wruaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah( that funny noise the cow makes)...inge dan irkane ( iam here only)
(i’m wonederin whO is talkin)
me: correct a solluga enge?( tell me exactly where are u?)
x:wruaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawruaaaaaah ugga apratments kitiye ( near ur apartment)
so confused....
sudeenly i hear wruaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah again now "its on the fone Or reality" god knows ... wateva it is... i am all confused , what say? and i turn arOund....and see then Mr.cow and mr.x , and still he replies, ok a madam!!! enga ponum ippo( is it ok madam? wher do we have to go?) ..... and I freak up hang the call... ( wonder wow.... wow reality is so much a set of roadio waves!!! and thanks tO cell phones)
Its 3 months since this event,loads of things have changed , i’ve turned 18, came back to bangalore !!! but the doubt is still unpredictable... was it the COw or the man?!!

And now i guess its all gonna be iPod’s.. and the amount of space it offers.... yesterday while i was talkin to my mom about this biddin on ebay.com it was an ipod we were all biddin for and went with 450 bucks while there were binnding’s startin frm just 50 , then i told her about a funny incident ,and friend of mine mr.vin was online.. and we were chatting about andoer cute friend of mine MR.B... i told viO ( Online) that b and i are gettin married and that we aint invitin anyone but cause we both met cause of him i’d be more than honoured tO invite him.... and that if he could’n make it for my weddin.. there is always another chance, come on the divorce day and yessssssssssssss!! I told him ipods as a gift anytime accepted.... my mom freaked up... are u kiddin me? and i made it clear it was just a joke...


imagine? a persOn judging wat is ur capacity by seeing the no’ of ipod’s and the space they’ve?
proplbly two kids will have a conversation like this

kid1: u know wat i had 2 ipod’s ,80 gb and lcd screen, and dad just gave me anoder one cause i scored the higest in the class... im gOnna record the lectured tOO...
kid 2: I know.. u won scored 3 marks more.. and i missed an iPod.... anyways i already have sO many.. may be i’d ask dady for a play station or an x-box!!


now i know this is enough.... u can have ur own time, thinkin of a load many oder events....cyahO, hope my mom gives me an ipod ... my bday aint tOo far u see....who knows the luck is luckier to be with me than ever?



peace....
iPod dreams AND have a nice musical day!
lol
blablaspan

the trauma of being me!!!...myself and I

IT was a saturday mornin, the world was busy, but for me it wwas different, i laid there on on bed, i was wide awake, i could see the bright world , and still feel dead, i did hear my heart beat , i could feel myself breathe rythamatically i felt as if i was closer to god, as if i were his child sent from heaven, I was at pease inspite of the rucus outside, inspite for all the feelings colliding in me , i was at peace in my own way....
I could smile to myself though my lips dint agree,
icould feel at peace though my heart was in pain,
i couldnt cryy ... though i filled my eyes with tears they refused to come out...
my body was weak , i was shivering,
but i felt strong i dont know y...

as i laid there thinkin WHO AM I? these thoughts i caught were passing by,

i am a rebel, i am the pain
everything i say is just insane,
i hate people beacause i love them,
i take them for granted,
beacause i know them
as i passed a sigh of releif , i thought about last night , suddenly nothing seemed so nice, i thought about the preceedings,

Some one had told me iam so nice, i could make anyone happy, in my own way, i was a happy kid, who laughs by, all i knew was may be he was right......

and then i rememberd the "silent me", being accused for nothin i've done,
i sat there listenin to everyone around me, they were talkin about the mistakes i've made....

YES I MAKE mistakes i dont know y.... yes i dont!!!

from the past to the present i travelled again, there still was a doubt passing in my mind
"who am i?"" what am i" why am i "i"?

i felt my blood run through my veins,
i am a daughter,
iam a student
i am ugly in a beautiful way
i am a traveller in the lifes journey,
i am a empress i rule my own thoughts,
i am a follower, i follow my heart
I LIVE FOR THE MOMENT I DONT KNOW WHATS NEXT,
i have a courage , i am a theft,
i am a citizen , i am tomorrow,
i am a dreamer, widout no sorrow,
i care for people in a different way,
i cant express cause words rnt in my dice

i dont want any one i need everyone
i need to be myself inspite of being the NONE
i need the need of being loved,
i need to be myself inspite of the crowd,

I don have to be recognised for what i am
i need to be known in a similar way,
i dont even know if everyone's felt the same...

I want to scream for the smile on my face
i want to cry the tears of gay in pain...

i want to know myself better every day
i want to affect the whole world in my different way
I LOVE YOU beause I want tO


philosophy is some thing i am not into , i search for answers through my experience,
A GREAT human said this

" are u scared that one day u'll loose everything? think of it today do u really have anything???
Today i have an answer yes i have NOTHINg......

yes iam spritial in my own way, i am divine gods child

everythin is answered "every question in mind,i've reached the hollowwness never attained
" I hurt people beause later its pain"
" i need nothing but wat i've gained"

i am here my heart still aches, but i know iam your friend, iam a soldier but inspite of all this

YES I AM ME,I AM MYSELF, I AM WHO IAM!!!

i am still searching for an answwerr,an answer the whole mankind is lookin for

" what do i want?"
i want this i want that, i want oodles of fame , i want love , i want name, i want fame
but the
answer goes this way
" all i want is nothing i need, i want something each time, it depends on what i have"
but right now " I WANT THE POWER TO BE MYSELF
" i love everyone by my own choice"

" i want to be the the soldier , the toughest one in the quest"
i still lay here, iam not in the past iam not in the present , i'm not in the future"

I am at rest, i am in peace with myself
I NEED noone i luv the feeling i am in now
but iam glad"i've answered something to myself , i stood for myself tO know what happens and when?
I LAY HERE WITH EVERYTHIN ANSWERD ,
my chilling spine with unseeked pain

" I AM MEE""
and this is ME


SPANDANA PRIYA.B

i leave u thinkin

hmmmmmmmmm have u ever wonderd' these ole ghazals half the time leave u thinkin ...??

huh this is one of those kinda songs..... great artists @ work;) may be thats all u can say



yek andheraa laakh sitaare, yek niraashaa laakh sahaare
sabase badee saugaat hain jeewan naadaan hain jo jeewan se haare
( one darkness and a lakh stars, oone disappointment and a lakh of supports
the biigest possesion is ur life, u r dumb if u loose for life)


duniyaa kee ye bagiyaa ayesee jitane kaante, fool bhee utane
daaman mein khud aa jaayenge, jinakee taraf too haath pasaare
( the worlds garden is so, there are as many flowers ad the thorns....
they'll come into ur arms themselves,the ones u ask for)



beete huye kal kee khaatir, too aanewaalaa kal mat khonaa
jaane kaun kahaa se aa kar, raahe teree fir se sawaare
( for the yesterday that went passed by , dont loose your tomorow
who knows who might come from somewhere,would again reset ur path)


dukh se agar pahachaan n ho to kaisaa sukh kaisee khushiyaan
tufaano se ladakar hee to lagate hain saahil itane pyaare
if u are not acquainted with pain then wats pleasure ??wats happiness??
like the sky seems beautiful after fighting with cyclones ...)

benched and bemouned away

Some come to sit , some are so sly
While some just come to laugh or cry,
Some talk to themselves ,some to sky,
No one knows that I’m sitting by,
Some rest on me and search for peace,
Through bustling crowd,they sit with ease,
I sit, I sit by the lake,watch people go,
Watch motor boats just pass by,
All this starts when morning begins ,
And continues till the sun sets in,
And my new chums, they often leave,
And forget to thank me , or ask if –u-please,
My day without and itenary goes on,
While some chums cry
And some laugh by.
Some people have their pretty mates,
They talk with love about their dates,
Some came to have their first little kiss,
Some talk about their weddin rings new bliss,

As time went by, all was new,
No lovers came,and came no crew,
Men who often found time for me,
Would come and talk about their gadgets spree.
As time went by, all was new
Airplane's replaced singing cuckoo,
While sprinkerls replaced my whistling friend
I knew "every story somewhere ends",

I knew I grew old so fast ,
I forgot to count the seasons past,
And one fine day I was uprooted away,
And replaced by a beautiful friend,
And named it something I don’t reckon,
I was thrown away,
And but i know I’ll be remembered one day
By some chum, I wont know when
As “THE BENCH” they’d rest on often!..

LIFE IS WORTH ALL OUR FIGHTS

If life was as easy as we thought it was... wat is great about livin it?.... THIS IS ONE SONG.... U'd wanna cry for... AN AMAZINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGg one.... beautiffulyy writen... and the vedio... makes me cry... close ur eyes.. and listen to it... u'd cry ur heart out.( that is if'd understand tamil)....;) i luv this sonG!
Ovvaru pookalumaee sollkirathey
Vaalvendraal poraadum porkalamey
Ovvaru pookalumaee sollkirathey
Vaalvendraal poraadum porkalamey
Ovvaru vidiyalumaee..
Sollkirathey Iravaana paghal ondru vanthidumey


Nambikkai enbathu vendum... namm vaalvill
Lachiyam nichayam vellum oru naalill
Manamey ohh manamey nee maarividuu
Maleiyoo athu paniyoo nee mothividuu

Ullam endrum eppothumm
Udainthu pogha kudaathuu
Enna intha vaalkai endra
Ennam thondra kudaathuu
Enntha manitha nenjukkull
Kaayam illei sollungall
Kaalapokil kaayamellamm

Mareinthu poghum maayanghall
Uzhi thaangum karkhal thaaney
Mannmeethu silaiyaaghumm
Vali thaanghum ullam thaaney
Nileiyaana sugham kaanumm
Yaarukillei poraadamm
Kannil enna neerodamm
Oru kanavu kandaal
Atha thinammuyindraal
Oru naalil nijamaaghumm
Manamey ohh manamey nee maarividuu Maleiyoo athu paniyoo nee mothividuu
Ovvaru pookalumaee sollkirathey Vaalvendraal poraadum porkalamey
Vaalkai kavithai vaasippom Vaanam alavu yosippomm Muyarchi enra ondrai maddum Muchai pola swaasippom Lacham kanavu kannodu Lachiyangal nenjoduu
Unnei vella yaarumilleu uruthiyoda poraadu Manithaa unn manatei kiri vithai podu maramaaghum Avamaanam paduthollvi ellamey uravaaghumm Thollvi indri varalaaraa. Thukkam illei enn thozhaa Oru mudivirinthaal.. Athil thelivirinthaal Antha vaanam vasamaaghumm Manamey ohh manamey nee maarividuu Maleiyoo athu paniyoo nee mothividuu
Ovvaru pookalumaee sollkirathey

easier to run

Thats something u'd never wanna miss out.. luv this song..!!! it makes so much more sense man!!!
"Easier To Run"

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Something has been taken from deep inside of me
The secret I've kept locked away no one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show they never go away
Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played

(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(If I could take all the shame to the grave I would)
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)

[Chorus]
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have
Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back
And never moving forward so there'd never be a past

(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(If I could take all the shame to the grave I would)
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)

Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel misplaced
Easier to run
It's so much simpler than change

[Chorus]
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

It's easier to run
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made)
It's easier to go
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)

THE SOLDIER IAM

Lost under the feeling of being lost….
Draped in silk and woolen cloth.
I walked., as if I were alone
I walked through the all things left undone
Showers of raindrops thru my skin
Feminine and scrapped my body felt.
T he pain in my eyes, the pain when I choked,
is my blood, it is the sin.
Lost beneath the labyrinth of finding myself,
Draped in twinge and tears,
I walked with a urge, to confess the sin,
As I faced the well lit world outside,
I saw the natives , I saw their dread,
Their face lit wide nameless blush,
There was similar pain in their eyes,
Some were true, some spoke factual,
Bewildered, I stared at the each new staff,
They frowned back cause they thought I was gay,
I walked navigating, each new place.,
And the landmark whispered" I was drifting away",
The truth twingled, oodles of love
It triggered all hatred, and the love for it all,
It wasn’t the whole world I had shared it with,
Shared that, I was lost under the feeling of being lost.
But somehow all seemed false,
Nothing ever seemed precise,
I wanted to die ,
I couldn’t go back to times of yore,
I wanted to read every thought in myself,
I wanted to scream , I wanted to cry..
I wanted to shout and tell them why.
They weren’t just natives,
They were all" my men",
They were fellow friends I had known then,
In the past hidden in the glowing when…
They had lied, they had promised,
That they’ll stay with me,

I knew they did,
I knew they lied, I knew they were false,
I was a soldier all through my life,
I battled though the natives , through their assaults, I battled to support myself,
I battled myself right, but I still stand here all alone….
Oh , cant u see it I am all alone here waiting for the dooms day,
Hoping at least ghosts will feel my pain,
For their souls have felt it just like mine….

a tribute to ma cutest buddy!

WHEN I GO rear AND THINK ABOUT natives WHO ARE SPEACiAL TO ME…there are only a few that I come across…but then…may be.. they r the unsurpassed outta all the ones in the world.. and one of them is palavi….i know I can keep talking about her …BUT I GUESS THIS IS THE LEAST I CAN do… ROCK BACK TO FEW OF PLEASANT Memories.
The first time I spoke to her was in 7TH GRADE… IT WAS ABOUT A FUED BETWEEN MY RIVAL AND WHO EVENTULLY BECAME HER RIVAL.
AND MY FIRST IMPRESSION WAS-AITE THIS ONE IS one OF DA BIGGEST NEARDS I’VE EVER SEEN a package OF thick POLITENESS AND ARROGANCE…WHO’D SAY I AINT HURTIN NOONE!!…
AS YEARS PASSED BY I NEVA BOTHERD to stay in touch with her nor did she…but I kept hurting her each time I met..I AM SO REALLY SORRY ABOUT IT SWEETHEART….i did all that naively….
HAHA… I shouldn forget about something that was EMBARRISNG….pulse and i had gone to meet her sports teacher , and when we went back to the class room… our English teacher yelled at us.. She was so vexed and I was horrified. But I still kept laughing…I KNOW I’d never want to leave that guy who’d complained about us…Somehow I am pleased that incident brought us closer than I notion it would…
IT was after our board exams that things turned out to be healthier, we spent 3 days and two nights at ma place.. And watched 3 movies…I still remember the first movie we watched was MR AND MRS IYER… and I still cant stop laughing.. We thought the movie would start even at the closing stages!.. We kept staring at the screen to see what that movie was… basically two immature brains trying to figure out pros and cons of an unhealthy movie.Then it was kabhi kushi kabhie ghum AND YEAh BEND IT LIKE BecKHAM… THIS WAS SOMEHTING WE BOTH ENJOYED.
I still commit to memory about the first serious guy I had broken up with .. and was depressed about…SHE helped me out of it.. She kept saying divert ur self man.. I cant see u this way.. I never knew I needed her so much until then… I know I constrained myself from crying on her shoulders, but I guess I missed one of the most beautiful moments wid her..
As days passed it was our friendship growing stronger and better…I found myself falling in love with the person she is… so innocent and true…. We’d go to British library and she'd tell me I need to learn to ride my bike faster… she’d thrust me behind her and herself ride and with no regrets… I’d keep telling her something or the other half the era.. And she’d never say anything… nothing at all!
Oh yeah when mom had left to stay wid my dada…we aka pulse ,aish(MY SISTER) and I went to watch bride and prejudice… On the way back .. our next stop was BARISTA BARTON CENTER… light rain droplets.. With mango smoothies and chocolate cookies… and pulse… and ash. I guess that’s one of the best combinations ever..
Hey I can never stop talking about the amount of patience she has to wait while I dress up… she’d keep an eye on every step I take and wait for least 1hr 45 min’s and watch me blow dry my hair…tell me if my dress is suiting me or watch me try out almost all the outfit’s in my wardrobe.. and tell me which one suits the best… embrace me when I act stupid.. and peck WHEN I droll…

I don know how to tell this to her.. the day I accidently went to her place was one of the worst in my life.. I was speechless when she told me that she was leavin for nujs kolkatta I couldn tell her my heart was poundin…each moment made me feel farther.. and many a times tears rolled down ma eyes… I just dint want her to leave but deep down in my heart I knew she had to.. and kept wishing she would make it to NLSIU..AND NOW…TOUCHWOOD she MADE IT, and I AM TRULY PROUD OF HER…..


I know I’ve written so much… but I dun want to miss out on this….
I guess it was 1st week of June that she was leaving for nlsiu .. GG, Pulse and I decided to hit a striking lake that we know…I made her saunter real long way.. and at last we was there.. gg had got us chocolates :P and I haven’t told her this.. and a lil booze.. we all sat on the lake side and the climate was exceptionally romantic.. Soothing.. I got drunk.. and she never realized.. and she was singing while I was lying on gg’s lap.. I had never felt that good ever… I wish those moments remained that way for ever and ever.. I was stoned … I was sky-scraping on the love she and gg showered on me…hehe:D…and on chocolates…


HEY PALAVI .HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY…. I LUV YOU

… I sense this is all enough… what say girl?…..U know watt… I wrote this ..Just to tell u that u r a part of what I am .. in some or the other way.. I’d never want to loose… and that u mean a lot to me…HEHEHE

ma calvin... dun ask me about hobbes

cloudy evenin.. iam munchin aunty's( AKA deep's mom)hand made pani puri.. and antuy comes uptO me.. and pinches ma ear...phaaaaaaaaaaat a knock on my head and screeeeem on the adject table... and both of us, deep and i GO wuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah wuahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... HEYLO!waKe up... its 10;30..jeasus christ was tht all a dream??? burr ...I PINCH MYSELF.. yeah it was... ( THE DAY B'FORE) As da day went by and my tution started.. and fortunately GOT OVER.. archana...OOpz haven't introduced her... she is some1 who could be rated 9/10 on looks.. and anytime of the day u would hear her sayin one of dese things ... a)poPAT HAI RE SALLA!!! b) whatt ra attiitude aa? ..nothing will work!!!..:-o c) chOhateh( THT MEANS CHEAP OR ELIS) d) thU fuker!!!!... deep.. hmm cant rate him.. he is a tOTAL SWEETHEART.. more like me..i'd rather say TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH LIKE ME... were walkin back home...basically its our aka mine and deeps duty to put her into an autO...sO after we caught an autorickshaw for our sweety pie .. we started walkin towards my bus-stand.. which is the oder way aroun.. and deep started makin funny noises.. pom pom... beeep beeep......... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr he ehehe... i din know what to do or say.. he suddenly stopped.. shifter gears of his invisible truck-ly mechanised merc and said.. aa na... ( I FREAKED UP!!!) deep please we r in a pubLIc place..ppl will think iam walkin wid a demented person.. he turned and said tOUH kya han.. in a fUnny and a kiddish way.. and held my hands and started runnin.. grrrrrrr whroom..OOPZ I MEAN DRIVIN.... suddenly he stopped.. and asked.. span u had a kulfi na?..wher is my kulfii?!!! i went nuts.. helLO u ok?.. he replied...wyhaaann .. me'll tell momma... hun hun hun...and acted as if he was cryin.. i had NO clue what i was doin.. enjoin the moment.? or cherishing his touch...when i just realised.. i had to leave!! so did he.. it wasnt late..cause i slept arnd 12;30 pm and beep went a message... spannnnn!! my kulfi.. ill tell mummy.. and imagining da iNDIAN VERSION OF CALVIN...went went asleep;).. u know what my dream was;) HAHA i have a confession to make.. if've heard the fact tht everyone acts like a kid for 1 minute in his/her life.. its fasle..!! cause DEEP ACTS MATURED JUST FOR 5 MINUTES..... MUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAh deepy;-) OOPZ calvin;)...afta all ur ma best friend what say;)